28.8.10

Fail.

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It annoys me to write this but I think I am done with my makings for now, unless I am miraculously better in the next hour or two, I just physically cannot do it.

I did go to the Doctor yesterday, a different one, I KNEW what would happen, but I was in so much pain I went anyway. I had to tell the whole story, I was crying in her office from exhaustion, pain & frustration, having to explain & re-explain why it wasn’t the small list of ‘possible ailments’ she was suggesting that had me there, until finally I was sent on my way with a shrug & some painkillers.

After another night of pain & not much sleep, I am feeling pretty shit, pretty lost, & I don’t know where to go from here. If it doesn’t go away, or at the very least, ease, soon, I think we’ll be off to Emergency again, just because I can’t sit here any longer, not because I think it will get me any closer to an answer. As it is I can’t function properly at all, & am on the verge of tears constantly.

Ah. Bugger. Thanks guys for your comments & well-wishes – if only they were enough. Sorry to bore you with my whinging – I think you can see from this that whinging is just about all I can do right now!

35 comments:

  1. oh, I hope someone finds an answer soon, or that the mystery pain mysteriously disappears... must be so horrible. take care x

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  2. Hasve you looked into fibromyalgia and lupus? As far as I know both have mystery style pains. Send you happy thoughts. Don't forget the wheat pack for pain too. Cherrie

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  3. oh dear, this is awful, I'm so sorry for you and sorry I can't do anything.
    I know that when you have physical difficulties in pregnancy it is multiplied by emotional fragility as well.
    Forget about making stuff, just do what you have to do to get through it.
    I'm keeping you especially in my thoughts and prayers today.

    Kel

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  4. Oh honey, I'm so sorry. I wish I could make it all better!

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  5. Nope not a fail, extenuating circumstances. Let's be realistic nobody expects somebody in pain and with sleep deprivation to be bouncy and crafty on a daily basis even if they have signed up for a gig doing it. You could try again in a couple of weeks or after the baby comes and everything settles back down again. Be kind to yourself, and keep looking for a solution. Someone will have the answer. Thinking of you and trying to work out if I know someone who might be able to help.

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  6. I'm not a doctor but I know pain. I no longer suffer but I had about 10 years of pain in my stomach that would land me in emergency over and over again. I truely feel your pain. Feel free to email me at hysend@bigpond.com and we can chat more about it. Sending you all my strength to get through this difficult period.

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  7. Ah, Vic!! I'd be mightily chuffed with your efforts so far. You've done amazingly well!! I missed yesterday because I was too tired and emotional to do anything - sobbed to Huz that I was too tired to make dinner. Health comes before craft. Always. As for the pain, maybe an osteo or naturopath? Is it a back thing or a belly thing? I'd love to chat more with you about it and try and help nut it out. Maybe I could recommend someone to see near where you are? I have a few contacts in the world of pregnancy and childbirth and all things related, so maybe I can help? Pains at this stage in the game are so common, its just tricky to locate them sometimes because its all squished and out of place. Much love to you and I hope you find some comfort soon. x

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  8. Hugs and thoughts are with you. I cant believe they would just send you away with a I don't know. I hope that the pain eases soon or they find the answer!!

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  9. (((hugs))) Vic. Wish there was something I could do to make that stupid pain go away! :(

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  10. I hope the pain goes for you soon too:) xo

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  11. I had a very hard second pregnancy too... so I know the words you typed out really only start to explain the turmoil that you're in.
    Do yourself a favour and stop using words like 'fail' to describe your current situation. Do yourself another favour and make sure you accept all help offered.
    sending you lots of love. take care.

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  12. Vic I am so sorry that you are going through this and I hope that you get some answers and help soon. Take care.

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  13. Hugs Vic..I hope you get this sorted and quick!

    Lisa

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  14. Vic, I hope that some one finds the answer to your pain. I'm thinking of you and I hope you are feeling better soon. :)

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  15. hugs Ms Vic, you can whinge all you want ♥

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  16. Love! You've been on my mind - sending you lots of love and postiive thoughts that this pain stops. I'm sure it sucks the big one - you look after you. Wish I were closer to help out with Le Punk. Kat xx

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  17. love to you Vic. I agree about doing what you have to do to get through- lower any expectations of yourself. Oh- I promised I wouldnot come in with an armful of advice, just a big hug xxx

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  18. ((hugs)) Vic. My second pregnancy was awful and I spent from week 24 on in constant pain - it was my sciatic nerve being squashed which meant it hurt to do everything!

    Otherwise, like a previous poster mentioned, fibromyalgia can cause weird and different pains in people it affects (my grandma, mum & I all have different symptoms).

    Hope the pain eases soon for you.

    ((hugs))

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  19. A great big hug Vic. I'm so sorry

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  20. Hugs :( Hope that you get the answers soon and that the pain goes away.

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  21. ((HUGS)) Vic, I hope your pain goes away soon. Pregnancy is hard enough without added pain.
    Take care x Lis

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  22. Oh Vic! Lots of big hugs.
    I really hope you can get some proper relief soon.
    Sending lots of speedy get-well thoughts!!!

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  23. o dear...big hugs to you (HUGS) hope u get to the bottom of this soon n be rid of this pain. sending u positive vibes....

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  24. That sucks big time. poor you. It is so easy to be close to tears anyway when you are preggars- being in pain must be so much worse! Poor Vic. Sending big hugs!!! xxxx

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  25. i went through a ten year road with chronic, at times debilitating fatigue and pain, and might be able to help you find an answer if you give me more details.
    email me if you'd like at
    beezus74@hotmail.com
    with your exact symptoms, location, duration, and brief important highlights of medical history and i might be able to guide you as to what to request at the docs.

    hang in there sweetie.

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  26. Oh You poor poor chook.
    Sending you big hugs and hopes it goes away gets resolved soon.
    xo

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  27. Sending kind hugs of comfort your way. Keep being kind and gentle and not tough on yourself. I hope that you get some answers soon, but in the mean time take all the rest time you need.

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  28. It's not whinging, and we're not bored. We're here for you hun. Sending lots of sympathy and hugs your way xx

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  29. Sweetie it's not a fail when you're suffering - we know you're an enormously talented gal! I hope you can find a doctor who can help you soon, sometimes it takes a while to find a good one who you can relate to and who takes you seriously.

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  30. Vic I am sorry you are having to endure so much pain. Have you gone done the natural path at all? Maybe some acupuncture, reflexology or an iridology (sorry spl?) check? Just throwing them out there? Big Hugs xxxx

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  32. Oh Vic, don't worry about the "making things" promise - you're ill! You're not procrastinating this time, you really CAN'T do anything.

    Yesterday I gave you a lecture about why you should go see a doctor, and totally forgot about WISHING YOU A QUICK RECOVERY!!! I'm so sorry about that :(. I really hope you get well soon!

    Doctors can be so stupid, and often you have to beg for help (though I thought that helping people was their job...). If they are not willing to check out where the pain comes from, then don't walk out of the surgery 'til they are! You have to be persistent, just like the pain, and ask for help over and over again. Or maybe go to the hospital... or yell at them... or kick their ass and scream hysterically: "Does THAT hurt? Does THAT hurt?"...

    :D

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  33. I'm so sorry that you're still in so much pain :(

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  34. I'm thinking of you and I hope you are on the road to recovery xx
    and not a fail...you're awesome!

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  35. How awful and terribly frustrating! I hope you find an answer soon, your constant pain must be causing you such misery. I would be so bummed if pain were keeping me from creating, but you must give yourself an emotional and physical break. Don't consider this a "fail", I always do when I can't create due to circumstances that I can't control, and then my boyfriend has to remind me not to be so hard on myself. Sending good vibes your way...

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