It annoys me to write this but I think I am done with my makings for now, unless I am miraculously better in the next hour or two, I just physically cannot do it.
I did go to the Doctor yesterday, a different one, I KNEW what would happen, but I was in so much pain I went anyway. I had to tell the whole story, I was crying in her office from exhaustion, pain & frustration, having to explain & re-explain why it wasn’t the small list of ‘possible ailments’ she was suggesting that had me there, until finally I was sent on my way with a shrug & some painkillers.
After another night of pain & not much sleep, I am feeling pretty shit, pretty lost, & I don’t know where to go from here. If it doesn’t go away, or at the very least, ease, soon, I think we’ll be off to Emergency again, just because I can’t sit here any longer, not because I think it will get me any closer to an answer. As it is I can’t function properly at all, & am on the verge of tears constantly.
Ah. Bugger. Thanks guys for your comments & well-wishes – if only they were enough. Sorry to bore you with my whinging – I think you can see from this that whinging is just about all I can do right now!